I realised hardly anyone reads these things, so I can rant without any disturbance (:

Yeah, I'm pretty fucking pissed off. I'm completely fucking up school by doing absolutely nothing. Try getting sent out the room for giggling (and your head of year getting involved) and threatened with isolation for talking?
I know they're meant to lay down the fucking rules since I got excluded, but fucking hell, do you wanna, you know, fuck off?

And my teachers even said 'if you stay in the school, we'll get you some proper help'. How many times have they fucking said that? I actually want it, so I can get sectioned or something, and get away from this god foresaken shit hole.

Why are we all so fucking dependent on each other? I want to test myself. I want to be locked in a room, with nothing but a bed, and see if I can stay sane without relying on people, internet, and limited food supplies. If I could do that for a month or so, I could become mentally independent. And, people wouldn't depend on me to sort out their fucking lives either.

Along with the bullshit I listed up there, I've officially lost someone I used to consider my best friend. I honestly don't know if it's a good thing or not, as I can't quite comprehend what's happening.
I don't hate her, I don't love her, I don't know how I feel about her. The fact she doesn't believe me when I tell the truth feels fucking brilliant. Apparently I'm nothing to her, so you know what, fuck it.
But, don't go threatening me when I wasn't willing to risk my future for someone who doesn't have one.
You fucked it up yourself honey, so don't go putting the blame on me. I can't be held responsible for the things you've done, I got confused and I messed up, and perhaps I made the situation worse for you. But, whether it be 1 joint or 1,000 joints, it's still illegal?

You don't seem to understand that you fucked my future up as well. You got me arrested, babe. I could even say you got me excluded. Because, when it comes down to it, you're always at the bottom of it all. You initiated everything. And, not once have you apologised.
Maybe I'm too soft to forgive you, or maybe I'm just stupid.

I think I'm too far gone to turn back the clock now, and I don't seem to understand the meaning of a 'fresh start'. I tell myself I'll stop, and I'll change, but what do I do the next day? Continue the behaviour that got me into all this trouble.

Hahahahahahahaha.
Fuck it.
I don't even care.

Just fuck life up, that's what it's there for.

(To anyone who's reading this, I haven't read through any of it, it is just a rant).